I just get so busy and overwhelmed with the depth of things that must be accomplished, going to the gym stresses me out. I suppose it shouldn't be that way; last week I saw a pinterest pin that said: my health/diet/exercise routine is my relationship with my body. How much time do I invest in that relationship? That whole thing irked me. But I'm getting over it. :)
Maybe she's happy because she lost weight; maybe it was just a lovely day. Body is just something I don't want to have to worry about. One less detail to trouble myself over.
I also notice the dates: most of these body transformations took 2 or so years. I've only committed to a year and I haven't even be able to hold to my resolve like I'd hoped. But that's really my pattern - I don't do "routine" well. Even if I "switch up" my exercise, I still have to exercise - which to me, is a routine.
The gym and the effort and the strive to get fit is not gilted, but the results are!! I want to feel gilty! ;) I want to feel that golden, joyful, whole feeling. And I think getting healthy will aid that.
God has been doing some good work in me. I feel stronger, more mature, and self-confident. I feel more confident in my stronger, different walk with Him. I stand up for myself. I speak truth.
But, I want to feel the joy of accomplishment.
So, this week I will be at the gym.
Finally.
